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Freelancing – When Writing Becomes A Chore

trying to sleepAnd I have missed you.

I had a whole post done a few hours back, nicely formatted and full of good thoughts, and I failed to save it.  Was on the phone, accidentally deleted it.   grrr.

That’s the story of my past few weeks in a nutshell.  Fibroflare/pain all over, worst flare in years. Insomnia – what am I doing up at 3:30 in the morning?  Brain fog.  Flightiness.  Fatigue.  Writers block.

When I started freelancing earlier this year, I was excited to be working, I loved having  my skills affirmed with great ratings and extra cash.  But soon the deadlines and the amount of time I was spending researching, writing, editing, re-editing, cost this old lady too much.  I’ll be 73 years old in 6 more weeks and I don’t DO deadlines very well.   People expect you to be open for business 7 days a week and they have no respect for the time it takes to write a good article.  Not anyone else’s fault but mine – after all, I was recruiting clients.  And I have learned a lot over these months and 70 articles and 2 e-books.

Vacation time - but I had no time left for my own writing.  I abandoned all of my blogs and my book and when I found extra time, I found that serious writing was the last thing I wanted to do.  I could work on Facebook because I could share short ideas and  photo-art (I did share some of that with you too just so you knew I was still alive and thinking of you) and it’s a different and very relaxing skill-set.

Finally, starting a few weeks ago, I hit a wall.  A Fibro-wall.  So I have declared a vacation.  Don’t know if I’ll go back to it or just call it a step in my process.  I can do voiceovers for extra cash for a whole lot less time and effort and then go back to enjoying my writing time.   After all, until lately writing was like breathing.  Now it’s become a chore.  My God, it’s  like chocolate becoming a chore.

Triggers - I am accepting hitting this wall as a message from Spirit to take stock.  I have been building up resentment writing with excellence about things that don’t matter in terms of my life purpose or even my interests.  Other people could as easily have written those pieces – about babies teething or the newest pro camcorder –  but they can’t tell my story or share my experience, strength and hope with others.  Still, honestly, as I write this, I am aware that when I had started writing about my past, I was triggered at times – and it scared me – I think that may be why I took this side road.  I need to really think honestly about that process and how to share what I have learned in this life without being triggered.  I do want to do an easier e-book on relationships first, having now written several for other people… a full-length BOOK seems like such a high mountain to climb.

And, I missed you, but I just did not have time to read your posts and I was so disappointed.  So you can expect to see me in your comments again as I do a little catching up and I hope some of you will have conversations with me.  I don’t drive (poor vision), so most of my social contact is online.   That’s another reason I’m sure that I hit this wall.  DH is very loving and supportive but no one human being can be expected to understand or resonate with all of you and I need the communityof beautiful souls that WP offers us.

This is a process, don’t know exactly how my life proceeds from here – except back in remission from fibromyalgia; she’s a hard taskmaster and has my full attention.   Thanks for reading my message.

 

 

 

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One World

“Why can’t we all just get along?” Rodney King, victim of brutal police beating years back

As we watch the people of the world hate, deride, deceive, bomb, beat and enslave each other over egotistic disputes involving territory, ideology, greed and grandiosity, it is good to just remember that we are One World, each soul equal before the Divine Love enfolding us all.

“When I was a child, my father would point to pictures in an atlas — the ones that show the globe without delineating countries — and say, “See, kids: God didn’t draw lines between us.” All darkness derives from the belief that we’re separate from each other, and transcending the limitations of that thought is our salvation in every situation.” Marianne Williamson

I have been saddened recently by the headlines involving our inhumanity to one another.  Of course it is “silly season” in America (election weeks away), so it’s harder than usual for any leader to think straight, but we seem to have woven such a web of deception and injustice over the past years that it’s hard to see how we will ever right ourselves, other than through the open heart of every thinking being remembering its ultimate mission.

“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.” Albert Einstein

Let us join together to raise the level of consciousness of all of humanity – yes, we already are, all evidence to the contrary notwithstanding.  There is a huge and growing movement of awakened humans who spend their time working within themselves to transcend seeming separation to build peace in the world one open heart, one mindful day and one kind deed at a time.

We are each a thread in the fabric of life and we each affect the whole – and yes, we do have a choice as to how we show up.  As we find each other, let us focus on adding more threads of Light and Love to the fabric of our present day world, rather than combatting or focusing on the darker levels of consciousness bent on destruction and decay.

It’s the only thing that can save us and our planet – and besides, who would trade a loving open heart for one filled with hate and fear? Not me, and, I’ll bet, not you.  There’s too much joy to be found allowing Love, the Divine, to flow through us into the world.

Namaste,

gerry


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Meditation, Global Day of Oneness

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Short version:

As human beings, we enjoy a grace, a gift of conscious knowing beyond our instincts, beyond our physical senses. We can entertain ideas, we see things unseen and bring them into being.  We enjoy a freedom of CHOICE not given to other species as far as we know. Because of our expanded consciousness, we are graced with the ability to step between event and reaction with deliberation, with an open heart, with faith, with intention to BE the beneficial presence dictated by our divine gifts – to heal, to bring peace and comfort to others as the rays of the sun bring warmth and the waves of the ocean bring moisture – so life can go on

Today, September 21st, is the Global Day of Oneness and we are all called upon to Choose to send deep Love to all other beings, even those who offend against us, perhaps especially those, for it is not ours to judge, it is only ours to love.

God is Love. I am of the Nature of God. Thus I am Love.

Let us each vibrate to our highest calling of Love and let’s pump it up and send it consciously around the planet today. Let those who grieve be comforted. Let those who are wounded in mind, body or spirit be healed. Let all those who hunger be fed, and all refugees find shelter and a way to earn a living. Let those who hate soften their fearful hearts and come home to the truth of their being.

We all want to live our lives and raise our families in peace. Everyone. This requires great love, an allowing of others to be and believe differently, a putting aside of “Me first,” a cooperation to make the world work for everyone. As we move into the silence, let our Love call all humanity home to a vision of peace and plenty NOW in a world that works for everyone.

Full meditation:

Let us turn our awareness inward to the Divine Love and Joy and Peace and Creativity deep within us. Let us allow our hearts to open and expand and receive.

Each one here is invited to a direct experience this morning of the Presence of God within, as my words flow over you in a gentle urging.

Let us focus our attention first on our physical being, that which allows us to be present here, starting with our breath. Deep cleansing breath here. Aha! Some of you are already smiling in anticipation of my next instruction – very GOOD –

Yes….breathing in, I release everything outside of this moment. I know only this NOW appointment with the Beloved. Breathing out, I smile, softly. I allow the consciousness of the Presence of God in me, as me, through me, to fill my being. This is home.

Turning on our soft smile is like plugging our consciousness electric cord into the wall outlet of God and being able to pick up the signals of Divine Love and Joy and Peace and Creativity deep within us and direct them as we are called. Our soft conscious smile will always bring us home quickly and easily.

Through our smile and our focus, we connect to our Source and we turn up the volume on that still small voice until it’s the only voice we hear. God is. I am. God is. Therefore I am.

Breathing in, I open my arms wide, palms facing the heavens as I also lift my face. This is my joyous communion with the Spirit of the Most High dwelling here within me, far beyond me, all around me. Breathing out, I smile. God is. I am. God is. Therefore I am.

I declare this morning, there is God and only God everywhere I look. God is all there is, expressing everywhere, as everything. I see a spiritual world through spiritual eyes. Glimpsing my unity with ALL other life and the shared spiritual nature of all things, IT blows me away! We are all One in God, One of God.

Today I declare that you and I are one in NATURE with that universal eternal Love Intelligence that makes things directly out of itself – for if God is all there is, what else is there of which to make anything? If God were the sun, we are its rays, composed of Light, bringing Light, but not its Source.

If God were the life-giving ocean, we are its waves. We share its elements, its buoyancy, we carry forth its nourishment, create mist and whitecaps and with its power, though of ourselves we have no light, no power.

I personalize the universal Mind of God, as me. As human beings, we enjoy a grace, a gift of conscious knowing beyond our instincts, beyond our physical senses. We can entertain ideas, we see things unseen and bring them into being. Beyond instinctual reactions, we are given the grace of awareness of that powerful, loving Something beyond our physical being that empowers and evolves us into knowing and deliberately using the power and creativity of the Divine Love Intelligence that IS the Universe.

As human beings, we enjoy a freedom of CHOICE not given to other species as far as we know. Because of our expanded consciousness, we are graced with the ability to step between event and reaction with deliberation, with an open heart, with faith, with intention to BE the beneficial presence dictated by our divine gifts – to heal, to bring peace and comfort to others as the rays of the sun bring warmth and the waves of the ocean bring moisture – so life can go on.

Today, September 21st, is the Global Day of Oneness and we are all called upon to join millions of others to know that oneness and send Love to all other beings, even those who offend against us, perhaps especially those, for it is not ours to judge, it is only ours to love. God is Love. I am of the Nature of God. Thus I am Love. Let us each vibrate to our highest calling of Love and let’s pump it up and send it consciously around the planet today. Let those who grieve be comforted. Let those who are wounded in mind, body or spirit be healed. Let all those who hunger be fed, and all refugees find shelter and a way to earn a living. Let those who hate soften their fearful hearts and come home to the truth of their being.

We all want to live our lives and raise our families in peace. Everyone. This requires great love, an allowing of others to be and believe differently, a putting aside of “Me first,” a cooperation to make the world work for everyone. As we move into the silence, let our Love call all humanity home to a vision of peace and plenty NOW in a world that works for everyone.


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SELF Love Also Shines Through An Open Heart

selfloveautmncolorOHMI can have an open heart and strong boundaries. Indeed, without healthy boundaries, an open heart is really quite difficult to maintain. This means time and space to attend to my own consciousness.

We can’t change difficult people – or beautiful people’s difficult behaviors or addictions, mental illnesses, dementia, etc. Sorry. I still forget sometimes too, and it gets me in trouble with either an angry, judgmental distancing or a wanting to control the person or the conditions around the person. It’s an ongoing struggle for balance, for me.

 Life is messy. Get over it.

Deep acceptance of a parent or a child or a spouse whose behavior is erratic or hurtful is the key to keeping Love alive. But that doesn’t mean they all have to live in my house or borrow space in my brain.

I know for me, it wasn’t until I fully accepted that my mother was an alcoholic – and could be expected to act like alcoholics do – that I could stop forgiving her difficult behaviors over and over. Nothing to forgive, only to love and accept her. What I could do is to could keep healthy but loving boundaries, show her a positive attitude and pray for her, and for my ability to love her. These dual insights helped me to heal as I released resentments I had held for years.

I can’t keep my heart open – except for that person over there.  A resentful (or a fearful) heart cannot open fully – and I would miss out on the joy and peace that Love brings to my life. My open heart allows Love and Light to flow through me to everyone and everything, even people who want to hurt me – and to myself as well.


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Let Beauty Open Your Heart

Flowergrowing_TrueColorsbyA-HoOHMI take time every day during my morning practice to appreciate beauty in the natural world. It centers and grounds me, opens my heart and raises my vibrational level to appreciation and awe. At the splendor of our world. At the talents of the wonderful people who share their work here.  Photo credit for today’s image: True colors by A-Ho  Enjoy.

Life has had its ups and downs recently.  Especially, I haven’t felt all that well – gut issues and major fatigue.  I have been sleeping a lot trying to heal, swimming, taking a break from writing.  Even so, my morning “appreciating beauty” practice, which falls into the category of meditation with open eyes, really does help me stay grateful and open-hearted.  This in turn not only feeds my soul, it also of course increases the energy in my body.

Just sharing, hope you are well. hugs, gerry

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