I just heard – it’s just coming over the inter-wires,
The story says he had been suffering deep depression lately, and it is likely that he committed suicide.
I don’t know precisely what Robin was thinking at that time, but I know he did not want to hurt anyone. I know he put this day off for as long as possible, just so he would not hurt anyone. Finally, we can’t know the exact nature of the final battle, but we know the dragon won.
Robin was a fighter, I know it. Even with all of his talent, all of his resources, his genius, his compassion, the dragon still won. I am heartbroken.
I know there are people who will see him as a weakling, who will think he had a character defect of some sort to give in, but do not count me amongst that crowd. It is exactly as if cancer won or Alzheimers or heart disease.
No one who has not been there knows anything about the darkness that surrounded Robin. They can’t feel the dementors tearing away at his soul or know the strength it took to keep them at bay, day by day.
The disease turns off important parts of your brain. On a brain scan they are dark, just like the darkness around you. You can see NO options…only despair…always and forever despair…of course there are options, but you can’t see them.
There is no other way that you can see to end the ever-present searing emotional agony, because the disease has obscured your vision and eviscerated your brain, and you long for only release.
God bless Robin and each one who battles deep depression.
Give us strength to fight another day.
Robin Williams gave us all so much of himself. May there be celebrations in heaven as he comes across the bridge of light and may his burdens at last be lifted as he knows only Light and Love forevermore.
originally posted on my new blog, http://www.openheartedmusings.com