As most of you know, I spent many years in the throes of clinical depression. I was a therapist during those years and still I suffered from depression. And even during those dark days, I knew that I felt best when I was loving other people. What I didn’t understand until much later was that it was the love going OUT that fed my soul, not love returned. The depression caused me to feel unlovable and so I was looking for Love in all the wrong places.
In recovery (which to be clear included hospitalization, therapy and medication as well as my spiritual awakening,) I found the Love I had sought – right at the inner core of ME! Cup-overflowing-Love, accompanied by Joy and Peace and Gratitude. Oh, yes, and HAPPINESS!
I discovered that when I returned again and again to the principle of Love flowing OUT from my heart no matter what – in meditation first, then in thought, then word and deed, I could honestly say I was a happy person, for the first time ever. Each time life challenges me these days, I find my Right Path through the challenge by rising above judgments, opening my heart, and living in the service of Love.
Not to mislead, I don’t always succeed right away, I am far from perfect in my practice. Still, even when I fall prey to judgments and resentments, I know I am “off my feed” as it were, off-center, and the gift is that I know where the Center IS. Right in my opened heart,